This is born from some correspondence that came after the first "real" post on this re-surrected blog ... and Martha, this is "your fault" really :-)

With my former post in mind, are are we now throwing ourselves to the floor, screaming "I wanna !!! " ?
Probably not.
It is such an ingrained (and important) part of our identities as Christians, that we should "do unto others ..." and that we must "love our neighbour" ... and that we should show proper humility
And this is where the message gets really tangled.
Because if we act like a greedy, screaming 3-yr old, we are not being humble and we are most definitely not acting in a way that will endear us to our neighbours :-) and we might be demanding something that isn't ours.

First : Loving our neighbour and dealing with others as you would like them to deal with you, and being humble doesn't mean lying down on the floor, imitating a door-mat !
Neither does it mean that you should try to become invisible.
Second : You are not demanding something that isn't already yours ! And God has enough love to go around. Trust me (or rather : trust Him) on this. Love, Christian Love, the kind that Paul calls agape in Greek (and which is usually translated into "charity") isn't used up or worn out by spreading. Quite the contrary. It isn't a piece of soap that becomes smaller and smaller the more you use it.

So, are you afraid to tell God, "I'm here. You know that, but I'm just finding out. Please show me the Gate of Heaven." ? because that will be too .... demanding ?
Or because "someone else" might go without if you get ? And really, you can manage ...
Or is it because you are actually afraid that you WILL get ? and you feel that you don't deserve it ?
Don't be afraid :-)
You are not depriving anyone, by asking God to give you what is already yours.
You are not cheating by asking to know, in your soul, what you have already been given.
You are not greedy, if you ask for clarification.
You don't have to say "I know others might need this more".
And, most importantly, do you really want to question God's wisdom ?
If God sees fit to give you, shouldn't you just open yourself, heart and hands, eyes and spirit, and say "Thank you" ?
Frankly : You need, what God wants to give you.
What is more : Others need your faith and your love !
Just as they need the love of God.
So ... go for it :-)
God bless you.